• Adoption

    Moving On

      Thursday, October 11, 2018 1:00 p.m. : I was hot and angry and frustrated and jealous.  My head hurt from squeezing my brows together in a frown.  I sat in the rocking chair pouting.  Why not us?   . . .  We waited 4 years to be accepted to the Japan program.  Last October, we were finally allowed to join.  Veterans to the home study process, we scrambled to raise money and complete paperwork and fingerprints and doctor visits last December.  Then we waited for a month and a half with no response.  Shortly after it was discovered that the delay was due to a problem with our email…

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    Hands Full, Arms Empty

      Six years ago today we answered THE PHONE CALL that we had been waiting a year for. Two days later we flew to Korea to pick up our son. Today, our current adoption is still delayed because of changes our Department of State has made. For the first time, I’ve entertained the idea of a “Plan B”.  This is the nature of adoption, I know. Nothing is sure, delays and changes are almost guaranteed. Transferring care (or better yet love) across international borders is messy, unpredictable, expensive, and always in a state of flux.  Yesterday my mom said that she knows people are praying for her because she has…

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    I’m Watching

    Today is the first day in a long time that I was able to really sit and focus, to quiet my mind, stare at my children’s sweet faces, remember that I am a mommy and that I love it. Our days have been full of packing, shopping and event planning all week, and I have missed the kids. Our fundraiser event was wonderful. The people who helped us were selfless and generous. I cannot thank them all enough. God is showing us how powerful our support is, and that we are not alone, buoyed up by this foundation of His faithful children. We raised almost $3000, bringing our total funds…

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    Call to Action

    We received an email from our adoption agency Friday. It explained that because of the changes in the Japan program made by the Department of State, adoptive families will now be required to go to court while in Japan. Though we are incredibly thankful that our agency and other agencies are working so hard to keep this program open, and to continue to make it possible for families to provide homes for orphans overseas, this new procedure does not come without costs. Having to go to court to adopt a baby will mean an estimated $10,000 in attorney fees that we did not anticipate. Also, the time we will have…

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    Mother’s Day

    This Mother’s Day I was tempted to feel sorry for myself.  Our adoption process is still on “pause” while we wait for the Tutterrows‘ case to go before a judge, and hopefully pave the way for the rest of us to bring our babies home.  There is no real timeframe which has been maddening. Meanwhile, my book appeared on Amazon and Barnes & Noble for pre-order one day last week, and I have been vacillating between the thrill of a life-long dream come true and a strange and guilty sense of “pretending” that I guess is a form of imposter syndrome. I honestly had the best Mother’s Day I can…