• Adoption

    Waiting for Baby

    My finger hovers over the “SEND” button.  The email just says, “Yes.”  This decision doesn’t seem like one that I should be given the authority to make.  Who am I to “choose” which baby I get?  At the same time, the process to this point has felt so insultingly invasive, personally critical, and endlessly tedious, that I tend to feel like I have somehow earned some kind of right to manipulate the outcome.  When I find myself thinking that way, I am disgusted.  Our baby is not a trophy.  She’s not a commodity.    I didn’t expect this part of the process to be so HARD.  It’s unbelievable to me…